Just a day in the life of one woman's battle to feel normal again, in a big, chronic world...
Thursday, April 29
Keep on keeping on!
There are many reasons why your life might take unexpected twists and turns; some you can manuever and change. Some you can't...as it is when suffering with an auto immune syndrome, like Fibromyalgia.
I think the uncertainity of the days ahead are the most frustrating to me. I want to work in my garden. I want to craft. I want to travel. Such simple things to most, but extremely difficult for me due to fatigue, pain and soreness. My plan is to keep on keeping on and allow God to help me lighten the load.
Til next time, blessings!
Wednesday, March 31
Anytime, the good Lord blesses me with another year, or another day for that matter, I am thankful for it. I physically suffer with pain everyday. If its not my muscles aching with soreness from Fibro, its my joints hurting from Artie. Then there's my mind...aching from worry. It is so much easier to state the phrase "don't worry about it" than it is to actually practice it. I guess we tell people this so that we can take some of the pressure off of them, by doing it ourselves. I am a worrier...I admit it, but I'm also a warrior. A prayer warrior, that is. Prayer is awesome! And right now there's several people needing prayer and healing...
This morning, Bryson's dad is having major disc surgery. I pray that God will guide the surgeon's hands through a successful surgery and grant Dallas a speedy healing.
My nephew, Nick, suffered a seizure this past weekend and spent two nights in the hospital. I pray for answers as to what caused this along with safety and healing for him, as well.
My friend, Nikki, is in the latter stages of kidney failure and is needing a transplant. I pray that God will give her body renewed strength and her mind the renewed faith to assist her on this journey...may her wait for a 'match' be short.
My friend, Rhonda, is experiencing several personal issues and is in need of prayers on her behalf. I pray it is God's will to help her seek answers and relief from these problems.
Zach is participating in the physical driving stage of his driver's training at the present time. I pray for his and the teacher's safety on the highways along with a passing grade and a driver's license upon completion of this course.
Consider assisting those you know and love, who may be experiencing difficulties, with prayer. Til next time...blessings!
Sunday, March 21
prayer for my bff...
I received news yesterday of a woman who needs a kidney transplant. The news hit really close to home and stung like a fighting hornet. Not only is this woman a beloved wife and mother, she's also a daughter, a sister, an aunt, a cousin...and, she's my friend! Not just my friend, but a friend to many.
I don't remember the exact date and time that Nikki and I became friends. However, I can tell you that for the past dozen or more years, she and I have remained in contact with one another...the last seven years, through long distance contact...exchanging and sharing news of re-marriages, new jobs, both of us experiencing moves away from our families and friends, and yes,..even health issues between us. (and maybe a secret or two..ya know?...girl stuff!) Oh, and problems! It's all in there somewhere...
Somehow, the problems that troubled me before yesterday, like, my health issues and catching the teenager doing things that most teenagers are going to try behind your back, don't seem all that bad. There again... there's certainty and uncertainty. I'm always going to be a mom but will I always be a friend? I'm asking God to help me with that one this morning...help me with obedience in prayer and to support Nikki in anyway I can through this crisis. If you believe in the miracles that come from prayer, I ask that you join me.
Til next time...blessings!
Thursday, March 11
Any the wiser...
I have a birthday coming up this month and I've discovered that even though I may be growing older...I'm not neccessarily any the wiser! Til next time...blessings!
Friday, January 22
Heros vs Villians...
We have a little ice this morning, in the form of freezing drizzle. School was cancelled and I'm sure traffic was a headache for all commuters, trying to get wherever they needed to be. Cancelling school was a headache for me! Like my mom always used to say, though... I'm "old enough for my wants not to hurt" me.
Til next time...blessings!
Tuesday, January 19
30 yrs. young...
So, even though I saw her and celebrated with her, I'd just like to say, Happy Birthday, Nicole...after all, you only turn 30 once! Hope you have many, many more and I'm around to celebrate each and every one of them!
Til next time...blessings!
Thursday, January 7
More snow on the way...
Speaking of cold and hot.....
There is a constant disagreement in my house over the thermostat setting. I'm a firm believer in setting it at a certain degree and then..."leave it alone"! DH, on the other hand, is forever freezing and 'bumping it up a notch', as he calls it. He walks by and bumps it up...I walk behind him and bump it down! I have pleaded w/ him to put on layers, as I have taken off all I can, w/o being obscene in front of the teenager! Nor, would I want either of them to laugh themselves into a tizzy! Doesn't do a bit of good, though. So, I don't expect to be held responsible if either of them fall over dead, laughing..at all my wrinkles and rolls!...I'm just saying!
Til next time, blessings!
Friday, January 1
A day of firsts...
I have loved this blog from the very first key that I typed...now, almost a year ago. I admit, I got sidetracked with life's little inconveniences over the past 2 months. Well, some were small...others appeared huge, at the time...but, whatever the size of the stepping stones, they've led me back here. It all started as a suggestion that came from one of my physicians. He recommended daily journaling as a way of coping with living with FMS. He meant for me to write in a diary or journal, quietly away from the world. And I did. For a few months, anyway. That was before I discovered that I didn't want to sulk, pout, hurt, ache or feel REALLY GOOD, quietly. I wanted to try living out loud, or at least, in the hopes of my words reaching, maybe someone else, who might be experiencing the same pain...that invisible kind. Because that's what Fibromyalgia is...invisible! To the average person, I look well and healthy. You cannot see my illness. But, believe me...it's there. I live with the pain and fatigue every , single day.
I'm back to blog again...maybe not every day but certainly much more often than I have been. It's not my new year's resolution. It's a promise I've made to myself to help my body and my mind cope in an uncertain time...with that being said, I'd like to make a toast...(lifting my glass of coca cola)...May this new year...the first day of a new decade, hold many special blessings in our lives and may we find much joy in every day! Happy New Year!!
Sunday, October 25
A fall Sunday...
I've been really neglecting my blog as of late...to be perfectly honest, I haven't felt as though there was anything interesting enough to write about. Nothing but FMS and the effects that it wreaks upon my body, and blah, blah, blah, blah blah!
I haven't been getting out that much lately, because I haven't felt like it or wanted to do so, but, this morning, I talked my dear hubby into playing hookey from church and we rode out to eat breakfast and took a ride along the parkway. Simply beautiful fall colors and breathtaking views. Of course, I didn't leave the house without my camera. Below, you can take a gander at some of the numerous pics I shot.
Getting on the parkway
Sign at one of the look-outs
Another sign
This was right before we got to the Peaks of Otter...we live at the foot of the Peaks
An old barn we passed in the woods
An old truck frame on the side of the lane
We stopped by the grave of DH's father. He's buried in an old country community cemetary. This old church sits across the road from it and is about 200 yrs. old.
One of the old markers at the cemetary. Not the oldest, but the oldest one that you could still read clearly
Another view fron the back. You should really click on these photos to enlarge them for a better view
This is the road we live on
We're going to turn into our driveway which is right across the road from that white house up there on the right
This time of the year, you can hardly see our driveway for all the fallen pine needles
And...we're home again. Til next time, blessings!
Monday, October 5
An excuse for slacking...
I can truly say with great confidence that I pray I never have to experience anything like this EVER again! The physical sickness that came with the withdrawals from this medicine, were almost intolerable. There were literally days when I prayed to die. The headaches and dizziness were bad enough, but when the nausea kicked in, too...well...let's just say, there was never a great day. There were hardly any good days, either.
Most of my summer is foggy to me because I slept through a huge portion of it. I slept, not only because I was sick and 'drained', but also to keep from actually experiencing the withdrawals I was having. I think I may can sympathize with an addict, going through rehab.
Today, as I write this I can comfortably say, that particular drug is out of my system. Praise the Lord! Hopefully, brighter days are ahead for me. Til next time, blessings!
Friday, September 25
Animal behavior...
Sunday, September 13
I do know what day it is...
I apologize for the confusing dates for the previous post. I had started the entry on the 9th, and saved it to draft, before discovering that I couldn't figure out how to change the entry date when I published it on the 13th. Another example of a 'no-say' situation, because if I had my way...editing would be much simpler!!
Wednesday, September 9
So long summer...
Fall is my signal that old man winter is on his way, as well. I think it's rude that he continues to visit, without invitation. It just reminds me of yet another situation in which I have no 'say-so' in. And as the days continue to roll past(and I age with each one of them), I discover there are more and more of these no say situations. I guess, next, I'll have to start Christmas shopping, huh??...
Bah...humbug! Til next time (I vent)...blessings!
Monday, August 31
procrastinating...
Cleaning- "it doesn't smell"!
Dusting- "well, you can't write your name in it yet"!
Laundry- "you don't have ANY clean underwear"?
Cooking- "wonder if they'd mind another sandwich tonight"?
Buying Groceries- "let's see...we have bread, milk and butter. What can I make out of this for
dinner"??
Watering my flowers- "I'll water after dinner". Then after dinner..."It's sooo hot and sticky out, I
believe I'll wait til morning"!
Crafting projects- "ya know the last time I cleaned, I put that away somewhere. Now, I have no
idea where it is"!
Sending cards- "But my card doesn't say 'belated'"!(birthday)..."I'm sure they're feeling much
better by now"!(get well)
Canning veggies-(from the garden) "How many cans did you say we had left from last year? I
doubt we'll eat that many over the winter"!!
Ok, maybe I'm not this bad yet...but I can see a significant change. One that has me asking somedays..."what have I become"? Certainly, I have some work to do on my behavior. Is today the 31st???............I must call my mom to wish her a Happy Birthday! Or dang it, I may just go all out and sing it to her. But, I AM GOING RIGHT NOW to do it, before it suddenly becomes a 'belated' one! Til next time, blessings...
Wednesday, August 26
"Guess who's coming to dinner"?...
Til next time, blessings!
Saturday, August 22
more pics from Tenn...
Thursday, August 20
Are the weeks growing wings??
Monday, August 17
hectic week...
'Sleepyhead' still snoozing...
Saturday, August 8
Blessings...
Thursday, August 6
Good days...
I understand that a lot of folks get a rush from the "thrill of the unknown". As for me...not so much. The unknown intimidates me, especially when it involves my brain and medications. But, the past four days have been really good...no nausea, no headache and no dizziness. I'm so thankful for this since I leave this weekend for Pigeon Forge, Tennessee. Prior to that, I was not looking forward to this vacation and had given much thought to cancelling the trip. Today, I find myself getting excited, and counting the days until Saturday.(it's 2 more!!) "Bring it on", I say. "Bring it on"!
Til next time, blessings! And thank you sweet Lord, for all of mine!
Monday, August 3
The many shades of blue...
I'm praying the worst of the physical sickness associated with the withdrawals, like nausea and dizziness, is over, but the depression has intensified so, that I'm actually turning a different color, and it's not a shade I'd prefer to be. I've never been a big fan of blue, but at the present time..."I'm blue all over"! Please continue to keep me in your prayers as I continue the path of the unknown. I truly believe it will be worth the suffering, in the end. Til next time, blessings!
Wednesday, July 29
Thankful travel...
- GOD'S GRACE & MERCY - He continues to uplift my spirits and helps to guide me through each day of the 'unknown'.
- REHABILITATION CENTERS - These physical therapy centers and their employees, are a "Godsend" to patients and their families, who NEED this type of treatment to get back on their feet.
- CHOCOLATE - Yes, indeedy, I thank God everyday for this sweet and indulgent treat!
- AIR CONDITIONERS - window units, central units, fans or trees...doesn't matter, really, as long as some form of air is circulating and blowing my way!
- DEODORANT - C'mon, think about it. Could you imagine a world without it??
Saturday, July 25
Green beans...again??
Wednesday, July 22
Wealthy Wednesday resumes...
Nanny (my MIL), is doing quite well now, following her hip surgery. She remains in a rehab facility nearby, gaining strength and going through physical therapy on a daily basis. Her spirits are much brighter, than in the beginning of this ordeal. She has accepted the fact that she is in the best surroundings available, equipped to provide her with the healing she needs, in order to prepare her for coming home. If she continues to progress, we're told she may get to go home by the middle of August.
I continue to 'battle the war', if you will, between my brain and a certain antidepressant medication. I never was crazy about rollar coaster rides and this is no exception! Since this 'weaning' process began, 15 days ago, (yep, I'm counting the days here), I've experienced 2 pretty good days, 5 or 6 not so bad days, and the others...well, I'd rather not remember. Let's just say, I didn't experience this much nausea when I was pregnant!! And when you can actually HEAR your eyes move...it's one more sick feeling! Nonetheless, I must go through this in order to get the full effect of this new medication thats just for fibromyalgia patients. Anyhoo, I'm hanging...maybe by a very thin thread, but I'm hanging! And I'm still excited, that maybe one day in the short future, I may be free of much pain and have a body that has more functional parts. I'd appreciate any prayers on my behalf...
Now, on with 5 additional things I'm thankful for...
- DOCTORS - Most spend so much time away from their loved ones, in order to care for ours.
- BARGAIN BARN - (Montvale, Va.) I found some awesome fabrics here to make curtains and pillows for the Yellowstone.
- A.C. MOORE - though I'm not usually too crazy about this store, I was thrilled to find that they still carry sewing thread. (Shame on Walmart for not!)
- ZACH'S KITCHEN SKILLS - Finally, the teen can work the microwave, and fend for himself at lunchtime. Who knew??
- FRIENDS & FAMILY - I know I've listed these 2 before, but I'm so thankful for them, I had to list them again.
Til next time, blessings to all!
Tuesday, July 21
Nature takes it's course...
Caught in the action of destruction!
And, again...